Pieces of you

Standing on the shore it clicked my mind.
The setting sun had glowed the dark so bright.
Can u hear the music of the waves;
so silent cries in the dawn of days?
I have walked alone a million miles, 
I no more get impressed by silent truth of lies
still can keep walking by the waves
I was just so cold n numb but yet all I do miss is,
the relief that comes from your presence 
The waves that night sang our song, took me back to my dawn


It dates back to the last time I was alive
I remember my words I once said
“Everyone is guilty and no one is ever spared or left"
My choice had never been wrong or right
My options were always two wrongs 
I had to select black that looks bit more white
I wish I could have been bit more selfish
But what mattered was how to hurt you the least
And I swear it had never been easy


I swallowed all the raindrops,
left umbrellas by your door
Princess dress should have no stain,
tried my best to take all your pain
But do hold me once if I start shivering in cold rain
No pity no mercy needed, I just got what I seeded
When I did hurt you I myself bled
Sorry is an easy word to escape; you left my soul
And who can run in eternal void space


And since then I don’t exist, I maybe alive but I do not live
However it wasn’t dead end of it
Being alive, there awaited yet more thrill.
The sea seemed to be elusive by the midnight
Dark could speak brighter than what light sees
I felt the alpha (beginning) and I touched the omega (end)
The feeling was more precious than one could spend in Vegas
The feel of truth bathed me that night
I wish I could say what I saw were mere lies


The ocean had got no idea of what I was upto
No wonder even I myself had no clue
I was merely pieces of its depth …
Boy! it hated me for that, it hated me to death
I know its kind of concentric maze
Its neither mine nor your image …
But I will help you to fetch the clue
Encrypting and deciphering the ashes for you
So lay back now, relax, an close your eyes


"Forget everything beautiful you know 
Think only of people or things you hated to death in your life
Bingo! So what was it?
A friend? A teacher? Someone very close to heart?
Or some mountebank who cheated you with his wit
Or is it the girl who lives next door,
right the one you call slut
The one who slept with half of your town?
Or the ugly lady in the corner, wearing a dirty gown


Is it one of his/her ex, 
or the guy/gal who dated him/her at your back?
Or maybe someone who do not believe in your god
The one you think killed your god,
someone who does not pray your sort
Kids on Halloween or that paranoid 
yeah one who screams world’s ending this Friday the 13th?
Or is it the god, who pretends to be deaf,
Or that awful sinner praying for success sitting on god’s chest


But before you or I blame anyone else
Lets recollect some pieces of our own self
I know it’s the hardest thing to do
Cause, what you actually hate to death are pieces of you
Now its natural if you hate me to death
I m your pieces, its you whom I reflect
When no one is around I don’t exist
And I mould into the image from your pieces
So I become as you insist
That's something you thought would never exist


I wonder what set me so free
Where I left the pieces that once made the real me
because since then I cease to exist
I am alive and well, but I no more live
so Surrendering to waves I slept on tides
That night was moonless, so I could not see
Though I traveled to depths of my void inside
The eternal silence held my hand
yes,like you I too have my own "no man's land"


When I opened my eyes there was this elusive sunrise
And I felt I was standing on heaven’s Island
I knew I will soon be back into life’s illusion
I looked at sun before I get so called I am alive delusion
The shining giant stared right in my eyes
we exchanged that dulcet devilish and evil smile
Message it gave was so simple, though mystifying 
“The brighter the star, the sooner it dies"


Written :Karan(sunny)
© 2009